It’s 6.48 am on Wednesday 19th February. I arrived to Bratislava half an hour ago after a long night on a train thinking. I was thinking that I was supposed to meet up with my boyfriend once I get here. My ex boyfriend. As you might have noticed, we broke up just before I left home for a 4-month trip doing Adventure and Spa project.
And now I am here at a friend’s who I had to wake up at 6.30 am to leave my backpack at while I am in Belgrade for the next 3 days. It was supposed to be my boyfriend the one to pick up my backpack and keep it meantime.
I spent the whole night thinking about my two relationships I had while blogging. I did build a wall around me, brick after brick with every bad word and horrible attitude I’ve got. Been years and my last 2 relationships were worse than bad. And here I was thinking …
Does it have to do with blogging too?
Do other solo bloggers, be it female or male, have the same problem?
Travel bloggers and relationships. I guess it’s a long story!
It finds me wondering … Or is it just me being super difficult and demanding?
Yes, I’ve mentioned it a few times already. My ideal guy would need to have 55 things for me to marry him, or just to spend crazy years with him. But is it asking for a guy who likes children, who supports me, doesn’t live with his mum and loves traveling so impossible?
My last 2 ex boyfriends opened my eyes.
I am not just super demanding, but I also have no patience. I want all or nothing. I don’t want a long distance relationship because those I had in the past, they all ended up with guys being unfaithful. And this is something I will never forgive and not going to risk it again.
travel bloggers and relationships
Last night I realized a few more things.
Yes, my relationships have a lot to do with my travel lifestyle and blogging.
I admit I need someone who will be able to most probably quit his life, his job back ”home” and start to travel with me doing an online job. It is very selfish from me to ask for that but my job, travel blogging, is something I have been fighting for for years. It’s far away from ideal but just thanks to it I can fulfill my biggest dream of traveling. And if you’ve ever gone after any of your dreams when a hard work is necessary, you will understand me that nothing and no one can make me change my life now. I am super egoistic in this and I know it.
And it also brings me to another problem when my travel lifestyle interfares with relationships – dreams. Many people think travel bloggers are just crazy people running away from life and problems. But we are running towards life. We are a small group of people who find guts to quit everything ”normal” people consider ”normal” and do anything to live life at fullest. To live our dreams.
The problem is that being surrounded by so many bloggers doing the same hard work that is not appreciated as it should, I expect the same thing from my boyfriend. I don’t mean that he shouldn’t support travel blogging, but on the contrary he has to have guts to change everything and follow his dreams.
Like I said, there’s just a very few people who can do that, and I know I ask for too much.
But I just cannot understand people who do have dreams but they are just wasting time doing job they don’t enjoy instead of doing something for their dreams.
And this is one of the problems why some travel bloggers and relationships don’t really go well. I am one of them…
And I just found out about other 2 travel bloggers who had the same problem recently. The funny thing is the problem comes more often from the other person, not the blogger himself/herself that finds it more difficult to go through these things.
Maybe we, travel bloggers, have learned already how to fight for something we really want to. It seems like our partners are the ones not being able to get over all this and like I said, find guts to follow their dreams even though we are here to help them and to show them it is possible. We are the best examples!
Do we, travel bloggers, kind of push our potential love buddies away from us with our independent way of life of ”I don’t really need you, I am fine on my own anyway” attitude?